i have no idea what i did to my keyboard, but my key i stuck…
the isue i with my… “S” key, if you haven’t gueed.
i noticed only moment ago, that there’ a freeeeeekin’ hole in it…
a you can ee, it works every now and then… but, mot times, it remains mia. all my other keys eem to be in tact, o it’ beyond me how only my key wa damaged. dangit.
jut goes to how that we take our ‘s for granted until they get ticky and almot ueles. wonder if i’m able to replace jut one key…
I posted the following update on my Facebook status this morning…
“Changes beyond my wildest dreams…
I’m scared, anxious, and excited all at once.
It’s going to be the most interesting 2 years.”
i am so incredibly excited. my heart is racing… my mind is experiencing a level of “alive-ness” that it hasn’t felt in a long time.
i need to finish planning this before the “reveal”… so there’s no way I’ll change my mind, no matter what anyone says 
i’m not denying that i’m scared sh*tless right now… I don’t do well with change.
but i’m not pleased with how thing have been going the last few years… and the only way to change it, is to make changes.
help me 
i’m here.
“that thought” keeps invading space in my mind.
put a stop to it.
i’m trying…
whenever “that thought” steps anywhere near your mind, say, “no!”
i’m trying. i swear.
whenever “that thought” approaches, tell yourself, “no! stop thinking about it!”
that’s what i’ve been doing.
good. keep doing it. it’s only been a few days… it will get easier.
will it?
yes. it will get easier… until “that thought” dares not approach you again because it isn’t worthy of your presence.
really?
i promise.
A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart,
and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words…
I have the most interesting assortment of friends…
intelligent, beautiful, loving and animated souls…
i love them all dearly.
my lifeline…
my guiding light…
my strength…
i would be in shambles without them.
help me…
you did it again, didn’t you? why did you do it – again?
i missed him.
you know what this does to you. turns you into a complete wreck. you know not to do this. you’re supposed to avoid it.
i know. but, i missed him.
and now how do you feel?
like crap. stupid, used, worthless… crap.
end it now.
i don’t want to. i know it’s probably best… but, it feels good to be wanted.
no. he does not want you. he wants it. end it. list your pros and cons… i guarantee the cons will outweigh the pros by far.
i know.
con: he ignored you when you called him for help during the incident.
i know.
con: when you needed moral support, he said he didn’t want to get involved… that it was none of his business.
yes… i know that.
con: he’s told you more than once to go elsewhere to get your emotional needs met.
i hate you.
end it now.
i’ll miss him.
will you miss this feeling? how you feel right this moment? will you miss it?
no. i can do without this.
so was it worth it? was it worth feeling this way?
i don’t know.
was it worth feeling used and foolish?
no.
end it.
i will.
no. end it right now.
i will end it.
end it in your heart, mind, and soul right now.
i’ve ended it.
good girl. you deserve so much more than this. and you will believe it one day.
