i know it seems like i’m always trying to get my sh*t together… searching for myself… making solid decisions… and attempting to move on to better, more beautiful things in life… only to fall on my face and start again from the bottom. and as frustrating as it must be for the spectators, it’s even more exhausting and painful for me.
now, i’ve been doing some deep thinking (when am i not) and have come to a realization that i’ve been unhealthily swinging back and forth between wonder b*tch and spineless wet noodle. and in an effort to balance myself out and find a healthy center, i have to force myself to face my demons head on, accept that this is all going to hurt like hell (at least in the beginning… maybe a little in the middle as well), face & overcome my issues one at a time (without cheating)… until i’ve finally taken back control of myself.
Continue reading July 30th, 2010: getting my a$$ into gear…
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posted: Thu 07.29.10 @ 7:31 pm
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can you guess from which movie this image was taken?
here’s the scene joshua kept replaying over and over (and over and over) again… the kid was on the floor, clutching his tummy, gasping for air… it was almost frightening!
Continue reading they look like marshmallows…
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posted: Thu 07.29.10 @ 12:15 pm
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i have no idea what i did to my keyboard, but my key i stuck…
the isue i with my… “S” key, if you haven’t gueed.
and i jut noticed there’ a freeeeeekin’ hole in it…
Continue reading ahhhh *hit… i’ve got *ticky *’*!
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Pronunciation:
Function: noun
- detoxification from an intoxicating or addictive substance
- a detox program or facility
- treatment designed to rid the body of poisonous substances, esp alcohol and drugs
… in my case, i’m in the process of ridding my mind & body of poisonous people.
Continue reading detox-ing
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I posted the following update on my Facebook status this morning…
“Changes beyond my wildest dreams…
I’m scared, anxious, and excited all at once.
It’s going to be the most interesting 2 years.”
i am so incredibly excited. my heart is racing… my mind is experiencing a level of “alive-ness” that it hasn’t felt in a long time.
i need to finish planning this before the “reveal”… so there’s no way I’ll change my mind, no matter what anyone says 
i’m not denying that i’m scared sh*tless right now… I don’t do well with change.
but i’m not pleased with how thing have been going the last few years… and the only way to change it, is to make changes.
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